Maki, thank you for sharing your heart & soul with us here. I deeply relate to pretty much all of the themes you have shared here. Loss of friends, messy endings, misunderstandings, and facing earlier menopause than I thought have all peppered the past few years for me with much confusion and heartache at times. I too am also still deciding how I make sense of them and how things are going to change looking forward. I know it's so tough, but I am so glad you have decided to do what's most supportive for your body and pursue HRT; I only wish I had explored this earlier before my periods completely disappeared, but I was determined to live in hope that the stop was due to bereavement and I so desperately wanted to manage it all naturally. It was not an easy decision but one month in, I am a different person and I feel a lot more hopeful than I did. Still, all of these huge transitions change the fabric of who we are and it's deeply uncomfortable having to be present and still with the empty rooms in-between each new chapter. I hear and see a strength in you though, despite the challenges. Sending much love. Thank you again for this piece, especially the Bukowski quote - I had forgotten about this one! x
Maki, thank you for sharing your heart & soul with us here. I deeply relate to pretty much all of the themes you have shared here. Loss of friends, messy endings, misunderstandings, and facing earlier menopause than I thought have all peppered the past few years for me with much confusion and heartache at times. I too am also still deciding how I make sense of them and how things are going to change looking forward. I know it's so tough, but I am so glad you have decided to do what's most supportive for your body and pursue HRT; I only wish I had explored this earlier before my periods completely disappeared, but I was determined to live in hope that the stop was due to bereavement and I so desperately wanted to manage it all naturally. It was not an easy decision but one month in, I am a different person and I feel a lot more hopeful than I did. Still, all of these huge transitions change the fabric of who we are and it's deeply uncomfortable having to be present and still with the empty rooms in-between each new chapter. I hear and see a strength in you though, despite the challenges. Sending much love. Thank you again for this piece, especially the Bukowski quote - I had forgotten about this one! x